I went to the woods

I went to the woods because
I wanted to live deliberately
I want to live deep and
suck out all the marrow of life
to put to rout all that was not life and
not when I had come to die
discover that I had not lived...

我步入森林因為
我希望生活有意義
我要活得深刻
吸取生命中所有精華
排棄沒有生命力的一切
不要當我生命終結時
才發現自己從來沒有活過

By Henry David Thoreau

from Dead Poets Society,
Robin Williams
1951- 2014

My first solo

Most days of the year are unremarkable.

They begin and they end...

with no lasting memories made in between.

Most days have no impact on the course of a life,

until one day, you can feel,

something is coming.

No matter what is the result at the end,

no pain, no gain,

I am ready for everything.




15 November 2014

The legend of Tok Dalang

He is like a magician

who capture light and shadow.

His precipitate voice makes

the old drama alive from dry

and the whole world goes up.

他就像魔術師

捕捉光與影

沉澱的聲音

把蒼老的神話注入了生命力

整個世界因此燃起

Grandfather meets his posterity

Never think that

there is a day  

the grandfather and his posterity 

surprisingly meet together

Line Story 線條的故事

有人說 一條線 可以看得出 一個人 的一切。
Someone said that a line can show everything by itself.

C's Father Day

Sometimes what I need

is very simple.

All is just

Only Love

Dating in mountain C

相約在C山

發現一朵野花

就像播開一頁新章

在某處，你沒在

Finding a new wildflower

is like reading a new chapter

in somewhere you don't see

走在霧林里

就像睜大眼睛

捕捉隨時會錯過的幸福

Walking in the mossy forrest

is like letting the eyes enlarge

to capture all the happiness in the fog you may miss

醒在寧靜的夜晚與喧鬧祈禱之間

就像一只沖鋒的戰馬，為了榮耀

或者它情願低頭吃草

Waking up between the silence night and noisy pray

is like a war horse charged for the glory

or who would rather be head down and grazing

呼吸在冷山上

形成一個朵雲

也許會化成雨

落在你的臉上

Breathing on the cold hill

forms a cloud

which may turn to rain later

somewhere on your face



31 May, 1 June and 2 June 2014

Time out! Change!

I can't remember how long I have not participated in life drawing.

It must be stopped since I was in the college time, which was probably 10 years ago.

When it started, the model was slowly changing pose for every 30 sec,1 mins,2mins, and 5mins

The organiser said: " Change!", "Change!", "Change!" (time out, next pose),  

I was too slow to catch it, and I told myself: 

" DRAW! DRAW! DRAW!, DO NOT THINK!!!"

Finally my hand is becoming a copy machine of my eyes.

It was so fun after 2 hours of naked life drawing and I love it.

時間與壓力

記不清我有多少個清晨5點鐘, 起床來畫畫,

當一切還是在黑暗與靜謐之中, 可以讓人好好地咀嚼孤獨,

這里時間會被拉長得像刀鋒那麼細, 心也會凝神聚目感覺到,

有一股微微的壓迫感一直默默地刺著,

我想, 這就是生命力, 一直不斷自我鞭打,

把自己沉淀起來, 與世隔絕,  一天又一天, 一月又一月,

盡管洗盡鉛華, 依然要不斷對自己說, 堅定信念,

做人, 是憑一口氣,

藝術, 也是一樣。

从容與自在

越來越捉到

从容的呼吸

自在的脈搏

一個是姐姐

一個是妹妹

這是全世界

因你而存在

與妳同步

最近抽出更多時間, 與女兒的世界一起同步.

開始時, 我在她的"世界"里, 讓她自由發揮, 然後觀察她的思維.

發現她許多有趣的想法,  許多的可能性.

然後開始灌輸她一些意識, 比如: 必須要通往地底下最終的一層,  必須要經過千辛萬苦的考驗, 才能挖掘黃金和鑽石.

结果她成功了, 這是她的成果豐收.

人也是一樣, 要不斷一層又一層地自我挖掘, 因為你永遠都不知道最終的自己擁有什麼.

日惹效應

日惹，这个地方在我還沒有踏入藝術圈就已經有許多聽說。如今因為巧合關係，讓我能夠以藝術工作者的身份來到這片土地，真的非常幸運。其實要去是很容易，只要有錢就ok了，但是要溶入那個地方的人事物才是問題的關鍵。所以這次也因為之前認識了這位藝術家，讓他親自帶領我們，才可以感受到這個地方的精髓。如果沒有他，我想我最多也是寫那里好美那里好玩，可是那是無法獲知更深層次的意義。也許正是他存在關系，日惹也不是只是日惹而已，而是一場啟發性的人生機遇。在我的創作上添加了日惹的色彩，簡稱為" 日惹效應 "。

 
那個人，就是Moelyono Moel，印尼藝術界的傳奇人物之一。關于他的事記，可以閱覽一位藝術寫作家的部落格: 摩爾先生，圖畫老師
http://arty-arty2.blogspot.kr/2007/09/moelyono-loam.html 。
老實說，我與他的互動并不是很多，雖然只有那短短幾天時間能夠單獨與他對話，但可以從他身上感受到一些東西。例如: 樂觀活在當下，正面去面對一切。

Gan (我) : Pak Moel, are you ok? your hand is shifting seriously... Is it something wrong in your body?

Pak Moel (老師)  : Yes, I get hurt to my spine long time ago, so it make my hand shifting.

Gan (我) : Oh, did you visit doctor? It look like a very serious problem.

Pak Moel (老師)  : Yes, I try to visit many doctors, including KL famous 鐵打醫療, but it still cannot get recover.

Gan (我) : So how do you draw? your hand is shifting,  it is hard to draw nicely.

Pak Moel (老師)  : Why not? I have done so many paintings, the shifting hand is not a problem to make Art. The only problem of making Arts is your heart.

當我看到老師的畫作時，畫功非常寫實與細致入微，實在難以置信，那是出自于那雙發料的手。

我與老師

于19 Feb 2014 天氣又熱又沒有水來的日子